I feel like I can say with a good amount of self assurance, This has been a good year. I am aware that I could have rose tinted glasses on here, but the truth is, I have exuded much effort to become a more Godly wife, mom, and friend.
I have the curse of sarcasm and a quick tongue, I know that this can (and most likely does) result in hurt feelings. I know that this is not good, so I have tried hard this year to be slow to speak. This is sooo much harder than one may think it is.
I did a study this year called Freeway: a not so perfect guide to freedom with college students. I highly recommend it. I believe it was an 8 week study. On the last day we took a look back through the book. Reflecting on the change in my life was a little shocking. I saw that I started out the second half of my Jesus year pretty convinced that I was sub-par at most things including, but not limited to; my job, my marriage, keeping the house clean, being a mom, and being a consistent friend.
What I had learned at the end of the study is that I had set my expectations of myself a little too high...I am not Super Woman, as much as I try and convince myself that I am (or should be) on a daily basis. The truth is that the most important relationship I have is with the Lord and he has set me free from all kinds of ugly, including shame, guilt, and insecurity. Through the process of this study, I actually listened as the Lord led my heart to a place that he could whisper (through my pride) that he loved me as I am, and that I am doing the best that I can, and "now" is a season. I humbly said, "Thanks God, let's get working on things here. So, I actually made some changes that would help a few things in my life improve and allow me to say that it is not by me...it is by the grace of God that I could even say that this year was a great year, and I feel pretty great about it.
Here are some highlights:
I had a second baby boy...he turned out to be pretty dang cute.
I did not fail at being a mom to "two under two". I mean, I am, therefore I am their mom.
I have operated at full capacity.
I have, I think, been a pretty good wife.
I have kept my house looking okay for at least a third of this year.
I have allowed myself to grow and change.
I have made new wonderful friendships, and been able to maintain a few and watch some old ones have some new growth.
I have hopefully allowed the Lord to love others through my life.
I have been able to see an amazing group of my small group girls graduate from High School.
I have been able to chat with amazing College age women about their lives.
I have told my story.
I have cried with, laughed with, mourned with and celebrated with friends and family.
I have tried to be honest. (with myself, my family, the Lord)I have LOVED HARD. My husband and my kids...it's a joy to love these people!
I have accepted help from the village that is helping me raise my boys (Oh, I cannot raise them alone. I need the help, I want the help, I have the help.)
The final things I am going to share is this; I have taken control of my health this year. Y'all, I was pregnant for what seemed like 2 years straight. I took a 6 month sabbatical, but got right back on it.
I feel so good. I feel healthy, strong and young. I can keep up with my kids. I eat almost exclusively "power" foods, so I am less tired, more energized, and my mind is much clearer.
All in all...this has been an exceptional year!
So, let's all raise a glass...Here is to 34!