Sunday, June 3, 2012

One thing on my mind

I haven't been posting a whole lot lately. It isn't that I don't have things to post about or that I have no ideas for posts, it's that I have one thing on my mind most of the time.

I am due in 18 days, but for the last 3 weeks it has been a roller coaster of doctor appointments that let us know at each appt. we could have a baby "today". Getting psyched to bring a baby home multiple times a week will seriously throw you for an emotional loop.

I have avoided writing MUCH on the pregnancy and having a baby, but It is hard to avoid at this point. My belly is large, I sleep little, I have little feet kicking my ribs and pushing on my lungs...and while it has been a sweet, sweet season, I am so ready to meet this baby face to face.
Our sweet child with a little hand over it's face. 

When I close my eyes and dream of the day baby gets here, I imagine my heart melting when Andrew tells me what the gender of our baby is. (I see us doing a laughing weeping sort of thing)
We cannot wait to tell our family and friends if we have a boy or a girl!
I think of the feeling of those little fingers wrapped around mine and I just cry.
I think of Andrew staring at the face of this sweet baby, holding it in his arms, sleeping with it on his chest, and I can hardly stand how precious the thought alone is.
I can't wait to watch him be a daddy.
I think a lot about how we will raise this baby and how to teach it about God's unfailing Love and Goodness.
I pray for wisdom and much discernment for Andrew and me.
I am so thankful for Andrew and his constant showing of love to me through his words and Actions, and how lucky this kid is to have him as a dad!

I can't believe that after what has been almost 6 years of waiting, that it is almost time to hold the little miracle.
I cannot wait to see our family and friends love our baby.
I am so thankful to the Lord for allowing us to have a child.


Anonymous said...

Sar, I am crying reading this post. It feels like just yesterday when Jimmy and I were in the hospital room welcoming our baby into the world. And, I can't help but be so excited for you and Andrew to experience such an amazing miracle. I understand that this time feels like it's taking so long to get here...but, you'll soon be surprised at how fast it goes by too! I love you so much and can't wait to hear when baby Beard is finally here! We'll be praying for you guys. Words cannot explain what you're about to experience!!! Ahh!! God is so good. :)


Rachel said...

All those emotions will be magnified 1000x and they will never go away! Being a mommy is the most humbling, sacrificial, joy-filled & amazing thing ever...and I am so glad you get to experience it as well!